Mercy For a very long time, I had resigned to the fact that by the time I turned 21 I was going to be dead. It's almost as if I had made some unconscious promise to myself that I wasn't allowed to go any further than 21 years as a miserable human being..... Continue Reading →
Slam Poetry for my Emo Heart
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5pbS9pZF7zs My life is a mixed up mistake... Crossed between hate of life and hate of self... Putrid, tiny, and crawling to a success I fear I will not reach... Always wanting something I know I can't nor will ever have... Wondering, will my life be what everyone else see's it as, and not how... Continue Reading →
Schizoid-anxiety
My anxiety comes in the form of anger, ocd, hyperventilation, staring off into nothing, zoning way the fuck out and ocassionally a complete shut down of my body ... Sometimes I just cry for no reason, but only in privacy because I cant allow anyone else to see it... I rant incoherent monologues about things... Continue Reading →
My Take on B.D.D and being the D.U.F.F
B Body Dysmorphic Disorder a mental disorder characterized by distorted body image and obsessions about perceived physical shortcomings.Abbreviation: BDD. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Let me start this blog off with saying, sorry that it's very long... Also, know that there are days I can feel very empowered and beautiful, and within a second I can go straight to berating myself and feel worthless, useless and disgusting... ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I am fat. No... Continue Reading →
Nickey Dubstep 